21 Days Into NaNoWriMo

It's November, which for any writer on the internet means you're either in the throws of panic trying to write a 50k word novel, or you're trying to discern whether or not you should have tried to write a 50k word novel. I've failed NaNoWriMo three times. The first year I had a blast trying it, but the two years after that became less and less fun. Last year I decided to not even attempt it. The concept of races and challenges don't seem to work for me, they don't motivate me, they just stress me out and make me feel guilty. I find I can't sit down to write every day without fail and then I feel like a chump for not doing it and then I feel like I've failed and then it starts to spiral out of control. Humbug. This year, however, I've been enjoying writing a lot more, and especially in writing in different forms. I decided to do NaNoWriMo (partly because it's misery to see everyone around you participating if you're not) on my own terms. It'd be about writing every day, or at least about writing more than I usually do.

It's been a success, I think! Part way through the month, I'll admit, I've started to really lose momentum. I've been so incredibly swamped with school (seriously, it sounds like an excuse, but I might actually drown in this pile of homework) and have been worn down by the darkness that arrives at 4:30. But I've written. I've written poems that I think are good, and short stories that I think are interesting. I've written memories that made me happy, and essays that have made me think. I've output far more than I usually do, and I want to keep doing it long after NaNoWriMo ends.

I think, really, that's the true test. If I just have a big burst once a year I can't consider myself a writer. Not the definition of the word the I want to embody, at least. I want to write constantly, because when I do I find myself having immeasurable fun. When it's over I love pouring over what I've written tearing it apart and celebrating it in equal measure. I want to write, and I don't want to forget to write because I'm lazy or busy or otherwise engaged.

The nature of NaNoWriMo is very WRITE NOW EDIT LATER, and I've held to that. I've tried to polish things up a little bit, but mainly they're in a pretty raw state, which means I'm not too ready to share anything yet. When this craziness ends though (and this craziness includes school), I'm hoping to go over some of the things I've written and post some of them here for everyone to see!

I posted a video about NaNoWriMo that you can watch down below, or by clicking here.